Cheekiegal’s Little PiNk BoOk

(sigh)…i have just one last month till the opening of the next semester. Seriously, i’m not that hyped up about it. Main reason? i’m going to meet the semester with new braces. sob sob, i can’t even imagine going to college in them. I’d bury myself in my own lonely world. when i was young i was teased by my classmates…now i have come to care bout my personal appearances. *i’m not pretty anyway…Well it still scarred my life until now i still have that fear.

It all started when my parents sent me to a Chinese school when i was young. My family don’t speak a ward of chinese then, so i was left all alone in a strange world where i had no one. It was really a hard time for me..Having to adapt with my new environment, my classmates don’t like me coz i don’t speak chinese. They think i’m just showing off tat i could speak english…like i will?? I was often misunderstood..a nerd in the school. totally miserable…

My self esteem was badly affected then, i had many fights with my mom bcoz of that. But things started looking up, when i reached secondary school. i started having friends and mixed around n learned how to stand up for myself. So, for anyone reading this. U’ll know tat i’m not all that strong headed i need some support and attention too…just like any other girl. i’m just more stubborn and straight forward. hehe. can’t blame me…

Anyway, i’m staying optimistic. i need to concentrate on my studies first and maybe relationship later on…Daddy is retiring soon, so i guess it’s my responsibilty to feed them. I’m determine to keep my promises to them. i owe them a whole load and proud of what they gave me. Thank Buddha and devas for giving such good parents.

Thats all..ai ling signing off.

-u know u love me- Muakss!!

Finally, i’ve got it done at last. Don’t laugh at me but i was thinking abt whether should i get a blog. Haha…i know, i’m a little ‘ tak kena’ in the head. Well, at least i finally did it. All thanks to helena, thanks dearie…for your help. Blogging wasn’t really my kinda thing…but i guess i could get used to spilling my feelings for all to see. Anyone who knows me, wouln’t have actually guess that i would ever get a blog. Hey, but who knows rite? Talk abt being spontaneous, hehe…

This holidays, i guess i could say nothin much happen. Most of my plans went haywire, things din go as well as planned i guess. Oh…yeah,i’m finally going to get BRACES, YIKES! i hate going to the dentist…it’s one of my worst nightmares! really…i can’t even imagine walking into a dentist. Secretly, i actually tried to stranggle a dentist. haha…when i was much younger. I had to be strapped to the chair…whenever i visit the dentist. soooo embarassing…enough abt the dentist. (it’s giving me shivers)

Ah…i’m finally manage to be a Sunday school teacher. i’m actually glad that i followed Vincent’s advice. Since, volunteering myself in Bakkula class. I look forward to seeing my little students. (i teach kids frm age5-6) They’re so cute…though not exactly angelic. Sometimes, they drive me up the wall and climb over your head. i really mean practically, climbing on you! Thank Buddha, for patience…i really need it.

i’ve got to stop now…or i’ll never finish. Haha.

~u know u’ll love me~ Muaks!!